Well, it’s been some time, has it not? After dropping the first new track in seven years yesterday (hopefully the first of more to come), I thought I should update the site on another important development. Over the course of the pandemic, I’ve had a lot of time to myself, free from the every day constraints of work and appearing in the world, and in that time I’ve had some realizations, among which are that I’m a (transgender) woman.
I’ve never felt comfortable with the gender assigned at birth, but I was also always conflicted enough that I didn’t feel like I fit anywhere else. If you’d have asked me ten years ago, I’d have likely said something like, “cis male by default, angry black scribble that I try not to think about if I’m being honest”. And despite all the evidence pointing me in the right direction for me, of which there was a LOT, that stood for ages. With life and everything else going on, I had neither the time nor the energy to give it full consideration. More importantly, I somehow convinced myself that it wasn’t my place to make that call, and that if I tried to, I would be appropriating something not mine. What I’ve since come to realize is that the way I came to realizing I was trans is valid, and it’s what’s best for me.
This likely has no relevance to the music, other than that I’ve swapped out the ancient photo on the About page with a more recent one. However, for anyone interested in the artist as well as the output, this is for you. 🙂
If you’re following this site (and let’s be honest, who isn’t?!), you’ll have noticed that this page just updated with a gigantic pile of new content, all in semi-random order. That’s because there was nothing here, and I finally made a big push to get all my Stuff Re-posted. So it should be all here again!
You can sift through it much more easily by using the “News”, “Music”, “Videos,” and “About Me” filters above. Otherwise, it gets a bit silly. 🙂 This chronological default page will make more sense in the future when I’m not uploading everything all at once.
The one big news item and the reason for the massive push today is that “Star,” a track from the ages-old Ramp album, “Peristalsis,” was just featured as the outro music in Monkeyman Productions‘ excellent podcast, “Moonbase Theta, Out.” It’s a fascinating story, and you should all check it out. And if that’s how you found me, welcome! It’s a fascinating site and you should certainly check it out. 🙂 You can find that track in its full form along with all the other music (including downloads) on the Music filter.
I wish I had something new for you from the studio, but that’s likely a little ways off. Still, I have hopes. Until then, enjoy all the music, and with any luck, we’ll see each other again soon!
These four tracks represent the stuttering collective output released post-Everything Comes Along. In a perfect world, I likely would have bumped some tracks from that release that I question now, and swapped these in. I think these are strong works that came from a mature perspective on that body of work.
That said, it also represents a period of slowing output as questions of mental health began to dominate my energy level and creativity. After working sporadically but with some collective regularity from around 2003 until about 2012, these tracks represent the output of weekends or evenings of light in long periods without. Maybe there’s some unique beauty to that, or perhaps I’m feeling maudlin. 🙂
I’m never sure what to say about Everything Comes Along, which was released in 2012. As the second full-length Ramp album, released after a two-EP endeavour, you would expect cohesion to be the theme. Instead, it’s a release that I see in facets.
The writing of Everything Comes Along overlapped the section of my life where I began to have to seriously deal with mental illness. It’s not an explicit theme of the album at all, but I can hear the oscillation of good and bad days in the tracks, and I know that some were struggles, and some felt like triumphs. It was a difficult album, but I think a rewarding one.
Some of my favourite individual tracks come from Everything Comes Along. Feel free to guess which ones.
“Fountains,” was the second of a pair of sister EPs, comprised of Orchard Days and Fountains, intended to sit together but released about a year apart (the former in around 2007 and the latter in around 2008).
Fountains is probably my favourite consolidated release, and I believe that it’s representative of a mature Ramp. It also marks the release where I think I began to challenge myself to be less afraid of putting myself out there, but it’s still a young release with some early foibles. I hope that you enjoy it as much as I do.